September 19, 2011

it’s just the look you give me when i whisper in your ear.

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May 29, 2011
music

i’m in a love/hate relationship that isn’t openly broadcasted on facebook.

i keep doubting myself. in my head, i know i can rebound and do it, but i’m scared.

i love music. i was born into it. producing music is like fucking opium to me. i need my fix. i want to come out with something that can express what i want to accomplish. lots of synths. upbeat and optimistic yet secretly dark. realism and clarity while evoking questions.

i don’t need other people to appreciate it, i just want my own approval.

so it’s time. i need to hold myself to this. no excuses.

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May 22, 2011
The Gamechanger

Well….I’ve got a interesting decision to make.

Looks like my job I’m currently at is offering me a promotion and a permanent gig. The law school I’m planning on attending is offering me a one year deferral while keeping my scholarship. Considering the fact that I’m all of a sudden in what’s looking like my most serious relationship in like 3-4 years out of nowhere and I could be in less debt coming out of law school….there’s very much a legitimate chance that I remain in the East Bay for another year.

It’s like the stars had to align for all of these things to fall into place at once for me to even remotely consider this. I know that I’m happy making money and with my personal life with my family/friends/girlfriend. I know that, especially after my first month at this job that I 100% in my heart want to be a lawyer and that law is my calling. It’s just a matter of when I start law school, and going out of school with less debt is very appealing to me.

Stay tuned……

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May 11, 2011

i HATE when people say i’m SUCH a nice guy, i fucking despise it. i’m not. at all. i have a fucking agenda. i’m going to be a fucking lawyer in 3 years for fucks sake. 

i can be trusted. i’m honest. i’ll treat anyone who hasn’t wronged me with respect. i can forgive people for things i felt were wrong. i will go out of my way to help you out if i think you have good intentions and a good heart.

but don’t get it twisted. the only person who controls me is myself. remember that. to the people who think you can psychologically control me= you can’t. and if you’re one of the people who thought they could before= you didn’t. i willingly subjected myself to it and knew what you were doing. the only times i’ve ever been hurt from anything like that is out of pure anger and rage of being betrayed by others.

i’m a very mentally strong person. i know what i want, and i know my own path to success and happiness. but never think i don’t have the balls either, because i’m cold enough to make tough decisions too.

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May 9, 2011

i twisted the knife and opened your eyes

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April 11, 2011

One of my all time favorite final scenes from one of my favorite movies

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April 9, 2011

LOVE this video, love this song, love this album. songs like this make me miss working on music because this is the same exact vibe i wanted to have with my solo stuff.

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April 9, 2011

I’m the lynch mob in the dark
I’m the silk worm in your heart
Spinning out my perfect circle

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April 7, 2011
Don’t Speak About It, Just Be About It

Hear me out everyone. Why do a lot of people have the need to act a certain way, dress the way they do, or talk about certain things repeatedly?

It’s because they’re looking for acceptance. It’s human to group together, why do you think mass organized religion exists? Why do you think certain subcultures of society, ones who pride themselves on being “hipsters” or “vegans” or “jocks” or “ravers” exist?

To me, everything is bullshit. Be yourself, be independent, be creative, and NEVER be afraid to try new things, to explore who you are as a person, and to live with no regrets.

It wasn’t until I decided to go on this exploration on my own that I knew what kind of person I was. Now, I’m more confident than ever and making it my #1 priority to do it as big as humanly possible in my 20’s. There’s certain things that are becoming more obvious, such as that I LOVE chasing woman being single partying and being social, and I HATE being stuck in a chair at a boring ass sales/office job all day while in a serious committed relationship.

Traveling around the world was the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I’m pretty sure law school will be the worst, unless I decide not to go at the last minute. All I can say though is whatever anybody wants to say about me, the last thing they can do is label me into a group, I’m independent and think and stand on my own two feet.

Don’t be afraid to do the same.

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April 1, 2011
Don’t look for evidence in phenomenologie’s apartment ;)

Don’t look for evidence in phenomenologie’s apartment ;)

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